Learning from history

Is this called learning from history? This year, each time I start thinking of doing a gathering, this old feeling comes up, the feeling of frustration that I feel every time I try to organise something and fail, miserably, to get a response, even a yes or a no. So now, even before taking the first step, I shrink back...I do not want to feel that way again, I do not want to get annoyed at everyone involved, I do not want to be all grumpy with those people. It is a choice to make, to go through all that but end up with a gathering, a possibly good one, that I will be glad I initiated. But what if the end does not make up for the means? Remembering a certain CNY gathering, so difficultly arranged, even though everyone turned up in the end, the mood to celebrate was gone. I refrained from saying it at that time, but thank you for ruining my CNY.